special

Are you real?
Are you real or just a dream?
It's been so long, I don't know.
I can feel. I can feel you with me now.
Even though you're far away.
Some are special.
They come back, racing through your mind.
You were special.
Your light, your heat
Will never die.
I was lost.
I was lost and I found you.
I will know no further love.
People move.
People move and fall away,
Love, you refuse to fade.
Some are special.
They come back, racing through your mind.
You were special.
Your light, your heat
Will never die.
So regretful, how could I ever be so blind.
You were special.
I thought I'd never lose my mind.
I was pulling far away.
You were begging me to stay.
And I thought I was losing you.
Funny, how the opposite was true.
Some are special.
They come back, racing through your mind.
You were special.
Your light, your heat
Will never die.
So regretful, how could I ever be so blind.
You were special.
I thought I'd never lose my mind.
Some are special.

the ode...

will you fight for the cause?
Can you teach the savage mind, their ways are wrong,
Help them see what they want and what they need?
And if we have to twist their arms,
They know not what they do is wrong.
And if you said I would go to heaven
Now, maybe I'll try.
And if you said I would go to heaven
Now, maybe I'll try.
Heretics and hypocrites,
Wear the same face through the years.
Telling lies and laying blame.
Damn the fire to feed the flame.
Don't dance or sing or try to think,
They're images planted in your head
And if you said I would go to heaven
Now, maybe I'll try.
And if you said I would go to heaven
Now, maybe I'll try.
i'm just a dog
With a heart that's noble as
The greatest man who ever lived.
Won't you please help her learn?
And if we have to twist her arms,
She knows not what she does is wrong.
And if you said I would go to heaven
Now, maybe I'll try.
And if you said I would go to heaven
Now, maybe I'll try.....

i'm back......

before i start anything, i would like to thank THE ALMIGHTY ALLAH for giving me a second shot in life... been recuperating well, done my operation.... btw, thanx 4 those whove supportng me all this while, aie,badd,tym,eda and along and not forgetting diella... i love you guys.. thanx 4 the support. i couldn't have made it if not because of you guys.... and sorry for those who don't have a clue of what happened to me.. i'm just glad to be alive....
life goes on....
my legacy lives on...
till the day i am no more..
before the day comes..
hope to cherish and enlighten
those who care...

THESE WALLS

something missing
left behind
search in circles
every time i try
i've been here before
i've seen you before
i can't escape walikng down these halls
hard to find a place where there are no walls
and no lines begging me to cross
only straight ahead better move along
like clockwork
i commit the crime
i pretend to be
everything they like
i'll trade everything for this
why do i read the writing on the wall?
i won't lose my place in line
i've been here too long
i've spent so much time..

LIFE...

life is short... enjoy while you can... appreciate people that care for you.... that love you the way you are... don't regret anything that's been done. there is always a reason for things that happen around you.. a man goes leaving behind his legacy... i sure hope i have one... but maybe a bit too late for that.. but life goes on...... until it ends....

SHARING.....

one nite, i called a friend that i haven't in ages.... around 4-5 years... i've not been a good friend to anyone... i've been hiding over my inferiority complex of what happened to me... the trauma of my past life still haunts me... but hiding never did any good... earlier this year, i made a promise to myself... to stop runnning away... no more running... face your inner deamons.. mano el mano... face to face... staring right into the eyes... last month... i manage to face it.... it felt gooooodd....
it felt even better after i called my long lost friend... now i know why nothing should be kept inside for too long... you'll end up like a living time bomb... waiting to explode... thanks to my friend, no more i felt that way... thanks a lot... i really appreciate it... the burden on my shoulder has lessen... and i hope before i go... it will completely disappear... so that i won't be a burden to the people who care and love me.... thanx for understanding... thanx for caring.... thanx for loving.... thanx for accepting me the way i am... till next time... me out.........

HOPE.... IS THERE HOPE?????

what is hope? do you believe in hope? is there any such thing as hope? is hope a shortcut to disappointment? even i dunno the answer... would there be any hope if you believe in hope? how many times have you been disappointed with what you hope for? living with hope or hope for living? just had this in my mind for a long time.... still no answer for it.... just a phase...