this week....

been busy lately. so many level of bosses visiting the store. week by week. everyone has their own agenda... been working 2 weeks without rest. yesterday, the fatigue really caught up with me... couldn't walk properly... had to sleep in the car before going home... man i wish i could quit.. the job is totally taking a toll on my body... maybe it's time for me to move on to another career.... but to what?.... we'll just have to wait and see....
enough said... just wanna relax today... too tired to go anywhere.. got a meeting today, but feeling like don't wanna attend it... enough complaining..... just been out of sort lately.... frustrated i had to miss my friends wedding just because of had to do my bosses work that was due that day... i couldn't even pass the present i brought for her... soo sorry ina!!!!
too cool down, i turn to music... it keeps me in touch with myself. it relaxes me. hope to see my peeps and my love soon...

island in the sun
pork n beans
perfect situation
buddy holly
keep fishing
pink triangle

i really love weezer...
enjoy the nerds....
cool nerds....

till hearing from me again... soon i hope...

creme de la creme

french word for best of the best... been trying to put it as my life philosophy... but it ain't just working.... i can try, but there are many others that are better off. proof eh? among my best lads, i earn the least, working in retail, not balance social life(dead actually), still backdated in knowledge, cannnot further my studies... damn... huh? life sure sucks...
changes.... of what? hmmmmm....... life goes on.....
i can' live my life this way...

ciao, peeps...

I can cook?

hmmm, never thought of myself as a cook... an eater? of course... i enjoy indulging in the finest food offered... just look at my size.... hehehehe.... eat while you can... hmmm, cooking.... never was a master but only for myself.... but recently i cooked for around 50 people at least, not once but 5 times in a row.... ranging from local lauk kenduri to authentic italian pastas... even croissants.... never had the confidence to cook... although during the early parts of the year, a mum of my best friend, called me a chef, because of my kitchen suit although i was a master butcher.... i'm really digging into it.. it felt good cooking... i'm getting this from my mom... as she used to be a caterer... digging recepies from her.... family secret dishes.... yumm..... long live the food...... aye!!!!

mudvayne not falling

mudvayne cradle

ciao y'all...

I can cook?

BACK FROM THE SUNNY (not so la) BEACH

just back from cherating!!!!!!!!
took some time off from the designated hell (work).. had loads of fun there...
the weather was purrrrfect... sunny but not so hot..
lodged in at impiana resort. did some bbqing. as usual, as the sous chef, i did the marination... feeling like jamie oliver, but larger, heheheheheh..... the waves were really big! felt like going surfing.... the sand was white... built giant sand castles..... man it was thrilling!!!!
should go there again....

RELAX................

ciao....

Back To School

funny thing though, when we were in school, we all kinda hated it.. some of the teachers... subjects taught... the curiculum activities.... etc.. lately i got a chance to go back to school... part of the company's way of giving back to the people.... society.... also known as community service... at first, i kinda hesitated, but after being brainwashed by my head honcho...... (serabai)..... i went with a heavy heart.... ( tak ikhlas lah ni)

when i reached the school, everyone, i mean every person in the school (i think) greeted us....
man, what a pleasure.....

seeing the girls and boys enjoying our company, i felt proud(kembang2) and enjoyed myself...
i became a kid again(mentally). went to class... played around with the teachers.... had to stand in class.... ( a bit too naughty)....hehehehehe....

i really missed those days... panjat pagar ponteng kelas.... kena kejar ngan guru disiplin.... hehe...
hisap rokok sembunyi belakang toilet..... hahahahahahaha.....

i really miss those days....... ahaks!!!

IT'S BEEN AWHILE

and it' been awhile
since i could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile
since i first saw you
and its been a while since i could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been awhile since i could call you

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that i've rendered
i've stretched myself beyond my means

and it's been awhile
since i can say that i wasn't addicted
and it's been awhile
since i can say i love myself as well
and it's been a while
since i've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
and it's been awhile
but all this shit seems to disappear when i'm with you

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that i've rendered
i've gone and fucked things up again

why must i feel this way?
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day!!

and its been a while
since i could look at myself staight
and it's been a while
since i said i'm sorry
and it's been a while
since i've seen the way the candle lights up your face
and it's been awhile
but i can still remember just the way you taste

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem to be
i know it's me
i cannnnot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

and it's been awhile
since i could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile
since i said i'm sorry

-everytime this song is heard by me, i just can't help but just to reflect back on my life..... it seems so related.. it's been a while.....