IT'S BEEN AWHILE

and it' been awhile
since i could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile
since i first saw you
and its been a while since i could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been awhile since i could call you

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that i've rendered
i've stretched myself beyond my means

and it's been awhile
since i can say that i wasn't addicted
and it's been awhile
since i can say i love myself as well
and it's been a while
since i've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
and it's been awhile
but all this shit seems to disappear when i'm with you

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that i've rendered
i've gone and fucked things up again

why must i feel this way?
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day!!

and its been a while
since i could look at myself staight
and it's been a while
since i said i'm sorry
and it's been a while
since i've seen the way the candle lights up your face
and it's been awhile
but i can still remember just the way you taste

and everything i can't remember
as fucked up as it all may seem to be
i know it's me
i cannnnot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

and it's been awhile
since i could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile
since i said i'm sorry

-everytime this song is heard by me, i just can't help but just to reflect back on my life..... it seems so related.. it's been a while.....